Surprise! You have breast cancer.

To anyone dealing with an illness or loss – I feel you right now. I have hope for you right now. You are not alone.

Back in my room after surgery, feeling no pain and glad it’s over.

It’s been 2.5 months since I was diagnosed with breast cancer, and 5 weeks since I had two surgeries, a double mastectomy to remove the cancer and reconstruction – to start rebuilding my faulty body-part. As a result I couldn’t participate in Christmas this year, I mostly slept, but I still got to enjoy the spoils thanks to the amazing people around me. 

This is everything.🙏♥️

One of the things that has helped me as I started this journey, was being able to talk to/read about the stories of other women. It helped me A LOT, so I’m trying to pay it forward. 

Every breast cancer case is different, every story is different, but IMO some of the same things come into sharp focus: it is a tough, crappy, painful slog; it is an ascension to warrior status; and, above all, your friends and family are everything. 

They get you through, and there are no words for the gratitude I have for that. Tell them what you need, love them and let them love you. 

Other things I’ve learned…
You may never be the same and you will define what that means. 
You will see the most beautiful sides of people you’ve known for as little as an hour, or for your whole life. 
You will see what matters and what doesn’t with fresh eyes. 
You will truly understand the value of taking a long, slow, deep breath.
You may understand the pain or joy of others in a way you never did before, and it will cause you to feel the most sincere compassion and love.
You will let go of things.
You will live.
You will.
For anyone dealing with illness or loss, I feel you right now.